I am so unbelievably excited to meet you! I can't wait to see your face and all of your adorable features, and to decide who you look most like: me or your daddy. Writing usually comes naturally to me, but I'm having a little difficulty putting my thoughts and feelings into words when it comes to your impending arrival into this world, because I've never done this before, but mostly because I'm just filled with love and excitement! I already love you oh so much, and I can only imagine how much that love for you will grow once you get here.
Although my life isn't what I had always pictured when bringing a little one into this world, know that we are blessed, son. Beyond belief! So many people love us and care for us and would do absolutely anything for us, and they have! Every step of this journey, your amazing family has been there to support your crazy and hormonal mommy, including your daddy. And that's one thing I pray that you never, ever question - whether or not you are loved. I pray that you feel the love we have for you every single day and are filled with joy and happiness. I know this world is a hard place, but always know that mommy and daddy will always be here for you, no matter what!
Everyone is waiting to meet you, so I hope you're getting ready for all the crazy that's headed your way! You will be held and passed around and kissed and talked to and loved on by so many people that love you. I wish I could warn you that your family is a little crazy (ok, a lot crazy), but it's the best kind of crazy! I am so excited to watch you grow and to get to know your crazy, because you don't stand a chance to be normal. Sorry, son. :)
Our lives are about to change immensely, and I couldn't be more ready! I've been counting down the weeks to your arrival, sweet boy, and I can't believe the time is almost here! FINALLY! I cannot wait to kiss your cheeks and hold your hand and count your little toes. I can't wait to bond with you, rock you, swaddle you, and just watch you for countless hours as we will finally have you in our arms. You're already such an absolute joy and light in my life, baby boy, and my heart swells at the mere thought of holding you! I am so thankful that God chose me to be your mommy, and I pray that I am able to provide anything and everything you will ever need.
I love you Landon, for always and forever. Keep growing big and strong in there until it's time for us to meet face to face!
Tuesday, March 14, 2017
Ok, time is seriously flying by! Here I am, already 36 weeks into this pregnancy, and our sweet boy will be here in only a few short weeks!
I had my 36 week appointment yesterday, and Landon is weighing in at 8lbs. 2oz! He's definitely putting on his baby weight and this mama can absolutely feel it! I'm also not dilated at all. So, no progress there.
None. Seriously, I haven't been craving anything specific lately - just eating all.the.things. Because HI, 8 months pregnant and growing a large baby. :)
It's kind of a "play it by ear" sort of thing. When it's time to eat, sometimes something won't sound good in the moment but I'll find myself wanting it a few days later. It just comes and goes.
Heartburn is STILL hanging around. In fact, I slept mayyyybe 2 hours last night due to terrible heartburn - and this was AFTER taking medication that usually knocks it right out! I've also been having my "episodes" again: weak, lightheaded, difficulty breathing, nauseous, etc. I had a bad one last Thursday that scared me pretty badly, but I'm just sticking it out until Landon makes his entrance! Also, since this past weekend, I've had awful pelvic pain! Every time I shift positions or walk or literally anything, I have to be extra careful not to move too fast because the pain is intense.
Landon is still moving around, but I can definitely tell his movements are less and less because the poor little guy is running out of room in there! It's perfectly normal, which I'm thankful for, but he's still a mover and thoroughly enjoys dancing on my organs throughout the day!
What I Miss Most
Right now, sleep. And being able to move without intense pain in my pelvis. But again, it's all worth it to have our little guy here safe and sound soon!
What's Happening This Week
We had our big 36 week appointment and ultrasound yesterday! It was amazing to see Landon after not having done so for two months. Boy has he grown! We talked delivery options and we're preparing for his birth soon! Other than that, I'm just nesting and putting away all of his things so that we're ready for him. His car seat is installed in my car and I'm going to finish packing our bags this week!
What I'm Looking Forward To
Nesting more and putting all of Landon's things away - our baby shower was this past weekend and I'm still going through everything! And for these next few weeks to FLY by! Please and thank you. :) We're beyond ready to meet our son.
Wednesday, March 01, 2017
February was a pretty good (and fast) month overall. I can't believe it's already March, though!
- Cory moved to Texas!
- I was completely cleared by my cardiologist and have zero heart issues.
- Tons of baby shower planning.
- Landon's crib is ready for him!
- Signed Landon up for daycare.
- LOTS of family time.
- Hormones. Y'all, they're kicking my butt!
- Lots of medical bills :(.
- House hunting failures.
The good days definitely outweighed the bad days, but there were also some pretty low days. Adulting is hard, especially when you have so much change going on and don't have a clue where to even begin to sort it all out. Thank God for my family, because I'd be utterly lost without them!
loving. Feeling Landon moving throughout the day. No matter what mood I'm in, it always brings a smile to my face! And then it makes me that much more anxious and excited to meet him! Ha.
contemplating. What do give up/do more of for Lent. And yes, I'm aware it starts TODAY!
smelling. My new face moisturizer. My skin has been so random with this pregnancy and it's hard to keep all the things under control. I'm finally trying a new moisturizer and I'm loving it so far!
reading. The Bible. Trying real hard to get into a good routine with it and stick to it.
deciding. What to eat. I never in my wildest dreams imagined I'd be tired of eating and deciding on food, but here we are. Landon needs SO MUCH from me and I feel so sick when I don't eat enough, so it's been a challenge to mix it up and not get tired of eating the same thing all the time!
learning. To go with the flow as things happen. I've always been such a control-freak and planner when it comes to my life, and along the way, I've learned that it just makes things that much more stressful. I'm truly trying to learn to turn things over to God and not stress so much about things I can't control. #trying
watching. All the good TV shows! Grey's Anatomy (because duh.), Girlfriend's Guide to Divorce (sooooo good!), all the Chicago shows: Fire, Med, PD, and soon Justice, Teen Mom (#addicted), NCIS: LA. I love me some good TV.
writing. In my journal every day for the past few weeks. It's definitely an outlet for me and it helps so much. Hoping it's becoming a habit and I'll stick to it on the regular!
hating. Heartburn! It's still rearing its ugly head mostly at night and I wake up several times because of it. Ready for it to hit the road!
listening. To Pandora radio - all day every day at work.
craving. Pickles. always and forever.
planning. My baby shower! It's going to be here so soon!
needing. To breathe. I'm trying so hard not to stress about life in general and all the things that need to be done and taken care of, but it's hard! There's still so much unknown.
dreading. Money issues. Always.
wanting. My husband. It's been several days since I've seen him and I just need a hug!
reminiscing. About nothing, to be honest. I just keep looking forward at what my very near future is going to be like with a newborn and figuring it all out!
eating. Anything and everything (except greasy foods)! I'm in the "eat all the things" phase of pregnancy and I feel like I seriously eat all day every day. #preggoproblems
drinking. All the time. I'm always thirsty and am always on the lookout for a drink. Sonic's happy hour is my go-to these days haha! Half-price Route 44 drinks?! Umm, yes please!
swooning over. All the baby things!
feeling. Overwhelmed. Hormonal. Anxious. ALL.THE.FEELS.
working on. Managing my stress and hormones. It's a full-time job.
hoping. That I'll be a good mom to Landon and will be able to provide for him in whatever ways he needs.
looking forward to. My baby shower and our next OB appointment! I get to see Landon again after 2 months and will find out how big our boy is!
Lord, thank You for Your continued blessings in my life. I pray that I continue to turn things I cannot control over to You and trust in Your plan. Thank you for a productive February filled with lots of love in various ways. I pray that this next month provides answers and joy as we get closer to bringing Landon into this world. I pray that when he is ready, he arrives safely and healthy by Your loving hands. Please help calm my mama heart with all the "could" happens. In Your name I pray, Amen.