Ringing in the new year holds special meaning for me this year. First of all, it's the turning of a pretty dark chapter in my life. 2014 was hard, really hard. It was the lowest point in my entire life and some days were hard to press on. However, with the help of my friends and family, I was able to move past my divorce with hopes for my future. But even though it was difficult, 2014 wasn't all bad. It actually held some pretty high points for me, for which I'm extremely grateful for. And it ended the best way possible.
This new year holds so much hope and light for me. And I can't wait to experience all that it is. I can't ask for a year of only good because I know that's impossible. That's not realistic. It's not life. But I do have a word for this year that I'm focusing on. A single word to encompass 2015:
I deserve to be happy - truly happy. I want to be happy beyond belief. I want to experience pure joy and spend a lot of time laughing this year. Laughing and smiling, that's what I want to be remembered for this year. I want happiness to look good on me. I pray that this year is my year for that and more. I'm not limiting God on just allowing me to be happy, for I know His plans are far greater than my expectations. But this year, happiness is key. It's the key in my life post divorce and in finding who I am beyond that. It's the key to thoroughly enjoying the moments in life I'm blessed with and the people I'm surrounded by. I'm going to cherish the little things and the moments of pure happiness.
I'm not taking anything, anyone, or any moment for granted this year. I'm going to strive to be happy in everything that I do, no matter what I'm faced with or tested on. I truly believe that you are the key to your own happiness. If you have a crappy attitude, you're not going to be happy. So this year, I'm going to find the good in every situation, especially those that I wished were different or easier. Well, I'm going to try at least :). That's really all I can do, because I know some days are still going to be hard. It's inevitable! But this year, I'm going to be a better ME. I'm going to focus on myself and find out what truly makes me happy, without wondering or caring what others will think of me or judge me on.
I've been going through the motions for far too long, and that's all changing this year with my vow of happiness. I'm taking control over it all and am truly going to live for myself, and most importantly for God. He deserves all the glory and will allow my happiness to swell.
This year, things will be different. This year, it's time for new beginnings. This year, I'm going to be happy. Truly, unbelievably happy. I just know it. I'm not making a traditional new year's resolution, and I'm not making a list of goals that I hope to accomplish in these next 365 days. Instead, I'm focusing on happiness. I'm sticking with my word and am praying it takes me to new heights. I'm ready to discover who I am and what makes me happy.
2015? Bring it on. I'm ready for you.
What are you striving for this year? Do you have a resolution?