Happiness Update

2014 was hard. Really hard. Life as I knew it was completely ripped apart and I was raw, emotional, scared, and petrified about where to turn and what to do. My husband admitted to his infidelity, we separated, and ultimately got divorced (filed and finalized). 2014 was mostly sad and filled with hurt, anger, disappointment, and confusion. And after months and months of those negative feelings, I was bound and determined to make 2015 so much better - to live in the moment and to truly be HAPPY. So, I vowed 2015: my year of happiness. And seeing as we're halfway through 2015, I figured it's time for a little update of sorts. An update on happiness.

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In January, I honestly had no idea what to expect of this year. I only hoped and prayed that it would bring me happiness, whatever that could even look like. And (honestly), I couldn't even imagine what happiness looked like post divorce, post my broken life. And what I've learned so far is that that's okay. First of all, I didn't have any expectations, so I wasn't disappointed. In fact, it's been quite the opposite of disappointment! If you've been around this here blog, or Instagram, or Facebook, you know that I've truly been HAPPY. 

I'm dating the most amazing guy, a guy that I never knew existed out in this world. He treats me better than I've ever been treated by a man, and I thank God for him every day. He's sweet and kind, sarcastic, motivated, loving, caring, gentle, strong, and is pretty easy on the eyes as well! He calls me on my crap and doesn't take a single thing for granted. He pushes me to be better, to learn things I've never learned, to see things from another perspective, and I'm better for all of it. He loves me and is showing me what a healthy relationship looks like. It's amazing, and I'm beyond blessed to have him in my life. Seriously. Cory makes me happy, and that's huge! 

I'm also happy with my job. I got a promotion and have made a ton of life changes, but I'm really enjoying it so far! Sure, there are ups and downs, and some days are incredibly difficult and stressful, but I wouldn't change it. I know it's where God has planned for me to be in this phase of my life, and I'm incredibly thankful. I'm learning and advancing my career, and that makes me happy

My family is absolutely amazing, and I'm closer to all of them than I ever have been before. I'm getting so much unexpected time with my parents (and my brother, temporarily) and I know how lucky I am for it. I am truly trying to not take it for granted and just soak it all in. Although I lost a lot of "me time", I'm embracing this phase of life and am working on a new normal. Routine or no routine, I'm still happy (shocker, I know!). I'm also spending more time with my sister, and it's really rewarding! We've learned that we're so, so similar but also very different at the same time. And because of that, we have worked on figuring out a good balance in regards to spending time together. Too much time together is bad. Too little time together is bad, too. But in the routine of life and our every day schedules, I think we've got it down! She is absolutely my best friend and I love her like no other. She and my family make me happy

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Through these past 6 months, I've also learned a lot about myself. I've pushed myself to places I never thought possible. I was spontaneous at times that would've normally made me cringe. I've stood my ground when the going got tough and people questioned me. And I've changed. I'm absolutely not the same person that I was only 6 short months ago, but at the same time, I'm more ME than I ever have been. And that, well, that makes me unbelievably happy! 

Happiness is a choice. And I'm choosing it every single day. Ok, maybe not every day - some days are just plain rough! But overall, 2015 is shaping up rather nicely. I'm in such a good place in everything, but I also know that I have so much learning and growing to do this year! This isn't all that's in store for me this year, I know that. But I'm halfway through, and things are feeling pretty darn good. And for that, I'm absolutely thankful! I couldn't imagine being in a better place than I am right now, and I'm praying for the second half of this year to be nice to me as well (haha). But I know that right now, I'm happy to say that I'm happy. And that's the ultimate goal, so it's safe to say that I'm off to a pretty good start. 


2 comments

Meagan said...

This post makes ME happy!! So elated for you :)

Mrs. Southern Mama said...

Sounds like Cory is AWESOME in every way possible. So happy for you!!!! Any man that you're with should be all of those things that you listed out about him. Praise Jesus for putting him in your life.

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