Blessed doesn’t even begin to describe my feelings today. Here are a few more words that describe my heart: loved, honored, fortunate, humbled…the list goes on.
Today’s a day that I thought would be like any other day. Ordinary. Routine. Runofthemill. But it has been far from that, and it’s not over yet!
Sure, there are those routine tasks I’ve had to tend to at work. Yes, I’m working both jobs today. Absolutely, I’m stressed and completely OVER the daily drama that is life.
But the blessings go on. In the midst of chaos and confusion, there is peace. On the brink of anger and hatred, there’s love. And all have shown up in my life as of late, and for that, I am so completely amazed and in awe.
Today, not only one, but many people have reached out to me because of this difficult season in my life. Whether it be a Facebook status/post/picture/message, random text message, a 3 second snapchat, quick phone call, or a detailed, handwritten letter, I’ve gotten them all, and I am dumbfounded. God is forever present in my life and I am unbelievably proud to be His child. I am thankful for the love and support of my family and friends. It’s true, in difficult times that don’t just ‘end’ in a day, you truly find out who your real friends are. You know who loves you and who is only putting on a show or giving empty promises.
No matter what storm is cast upon us, life goes on. There are still dishes in the sink needing to be washed, clothes waiting to be folded, and tasks to check off of the ever-growing to do list. But there are also smiles to be shared, laughter to be heard, and joy to be felt. And in difficult times, those little moments that someone can truly make you happy, no matter how fleeting, are important. You never know when someone needs it the most. It matters, especially because life goes on.
Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
and he saved them from their distress.
He sent out his word and healed them;
he rescued them from the grave.
Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for mankind.
A word of advice: be there, even when times are tough. Especially when times are tough.
Your strength is truly truly admirable. Always here for you. Love ya. =) xoxo
Experiencing hatred is a disconcerting thing. I think, as Christians, we're taught that hate is "bad" and that we should avoid it, and feel guilty if we do feel it. What I've learned is that in the presence of such a strong emotion as love is, hate is an equal and opposite emotion and a natural, normal emotion to experience on the path of love. I've also learned that it isn't permanent, it IS passing, and there's nothing to feel guilty about.
I think we're all impressed upon to feel guilty for feeling anger, too, and to avoid it, if possible. But what I know is that when I get hurt, I'd much rather feel angry than hurt. Angry feels purposeful to me, like I'm doing something. Anger is defensive. I am all too content, when someone hurts me, to rush headlong into angry and camp out (HIDE OUT!) there for a very long time. Anger feels safe. But you can't stay there forever. Eventually it becomes exhausting and you naturally progress to the next emotions on the list: disappointment, discouragement, resentment, acceptance.
Don't beat yourself up for whatever you feel. Take the time to identify it, acknowledge it, discover the purpose of each.