June 9, 2014 in divorce, mystory

There is a question that I’ve been asked a lot lately, and I’ve sort of skipped around it, not wanting to answer. Why?

Why do you seem sad all the time? 
Why have you been absent from blogging? 
Why did you create a new blog? 
Why are you so needy? 
Why don’t you want to hang out? 
Why haven’t you been around lately? 
Why are you so busy? 
Why do you have new social media accounts?
Why are you so emotional? 
Why have you kept what’s happening a secret? 
Why don’t you talk to someone?

I’m embracing my story. This is my testament. THIS is why.

**This is not to appease anyone’s specific inquiry about what’s going on. This is an outlet for me. To tell my story. To write it out, accept it, and process it the best I can. This is for ME to be able to move forward. If you’re still asking why I’m putting it all out there, stick around. This will be written as a series of posts, and by the end of it all, you’ll know why.**

A few months ago, my life changed forever. I heard four words that I never in a million years thought I’d hear from this person…this person I loved, adored, and thought the world of. This person that I would sacrifice anything and everything for. My best friend. My lover. My husband
I want a divorce. 
It wasn’t a joke, nor was it a threat. It was a simple statement made with the coldest eyes and lack of emotion I’ve ever seen from him. Him, who I pictured forever with – a lifetime! He was done. Done with me, with our marriage, with our memories, with our future. It was the worst night of my life. 
It was closing in on midnight, and he had been out with some friends. I was at my brother’s apartment for dinner earlier and was waiting for him to pick me up so we could go home. It had been a long few days and I was ready to see him and spend some time with him! When he arrived, he was itching to go, but something was wrong. I could feel it radiating from his skin. We got home, got ready for bed, and just talked. We talked about our week and how our day went, nothing out of the ordinary. It was a Saturday and one that will forever be ingrained within my soul. It was the Saturday that my entire core was shaken and ripped apart, one thread at a time. Out of nowhere, he uttered the words: I want a divorce.
To continue reading, head here for the label “mystory“. 


  • Karla FNW June 9, 2014 at 8:34 am

    My heart & my prayers are still with you. I'm glad you are doing this for yourself. <3 <3 <3

  • Jen June 9, 2014 at 12:18 pm

    I'm so sorry you've been hurt this way, that someone has inflicted this kind of pain and shock on someone as sweet, giving, loving and supportive as you. I hate that you're going through it, but I'm also glad that you're feeling safe enough now to talk about it, and I know that, if you've given your best to something and given your all and have had it rejected, then that person isn't deserving of everything you gave.

  • Patty June 9, 2014 at 2:36 pm

    So scary and so difficult…thoughts and prayers are with you, dear one! 🙂

  • Patty June 9, 2014 at 3:10 pm

    So scary and sad…hugs and prayers as you process and heal from this trauma!! xoxo

  • Allison @ Texas Mrs. June 10, 2014 at 11:01 am

    My heart is tearing apart for you right now. I seriously wish I could give you a huge hug. I cannot even imagine the emotions that you must be going through. Those four words would scary ANYONE. I am going to do some SERIOUS praying for you. I pray that God will do wonders in this phase of your life. I want you to know that God loves you and so do I!

  • Rob Junkala June 10, 2014 at 10:26 pm

    Well written Brianna. I always find that we write the very best when it's contents really hurt..
    I'm so sorry that you heard those words.. I'm sorry that you're going through all of this. I always say- everything happens for a reason. It's not always easy to hear- but, it's the truth.
    Thinking about you and wishing you well. I'm glad you are near your siblings. They'll be there for you during these hard times.

  • Haley June 10, 2014 at 11:38 pm

    Brianna! Rob Junkala- is my husband. LOL- I was on his account by mistake!

  • Taylor Hoffman October 7, 2014 at 2:27 pm

    This totally sucks. My parents went through a brutal divorce a little over 3 years ago, I was a freshman in college. Although I don't know what it feels like to be the divorcee I know what it feels like to be a kid going though it and it is NOT easy. Hardest thing my family ever went through (and is still going through). My thoughts and prayers are with you and anyone else who has to go through such a terrible time. So glad you have your blog to express your feelings. We are all here for ya girl!

    xo, Taylor

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